I never really thought myself in this way until listening to Jet Li recently: I like to share, not to teach. I recently had to teach a child to play chess, and I become more aware, the teaching itself is not that enjoyable for me. Sharing strategies and thought processes were very interesting. But teaching you to play smart, play to win, play like this, do not do this, was not enjoyable for me.

As a PhD student, the most common people ask is, do you want to become a professor after graduation. I always said no. I thought the process of becoming a professor was too troublesome and there are some business-like aspects that are not desirable for me. I have had some decent history of teaching others, whether in academics or even games.

But was the teaching itself really the joy for me? Not really..? But I begin to realize that I loved to share. Share what I know. Have a bonding experience. If it is interesting for you, I hope you learn something new too! If not, that is also okay! But teaching as some structured or systematic set of rules, expecting you to follow them in short time, evaluating your progress, itself is not that enjoyable for me.

For any religious or spiritual practice (whatever you may call it), I do share a lot. This website is a place for sharing. But do I really feel like I am teaching or want to teach you? Not really. I enjoy sharing parts of my story, parts of growth that were meaningful to me. But I did not particularly like to use these teachings to others for some grand purposes like self-help, solving depression, discovering your true-self, philosophy, conversion, etc. I just liked to share. Surely parts of this can be useful for you. But there are many parts that are just not for how you are and your lifestyle, and that is perfectly fine.